Waking up in the Morning...

My Alarm Clock rings at 9 am in the morning but I usually beat the alarm and have already prepared stuffs at work before it goes on. It's a crucial part of my day wherein I choose what my mood would be. If I should be happy or sad, disappointed or upset. I admit, it seems like its so hard to be happy these days of my life. When all you do each day is work and no leisure. When something makes you happy before doesnt seem to be effective anymore. When you feel something is missing and you want to find it but you dont know how and where to start. I think I am a troubled person now. I know I lost my self control somewhere and would rather stick to fight for what is right. This life is becoming so boring. Nobody understands me. They tell me they understand but they dont seem to do anything about it... they dont care. I am poor in terms of happiness. I envy them when all they can talk about is how happy they are. What about me? What about my happiness? When I was younger things that makes me a happy was a lot easier to achieve compared nowadays. Especially when I dont exactly know what makes me happy anymore.